Don't really know how to feel... 9:04pm

Well there is the world news.. Our new President. How cool can that be. I'm hoping for a whole new out look on how thing are done and how things are run. I hope that he stands by what he says he will do and make a change. To me he seems to have a... I don't know how to put it an ora about him a peace about him. I think he will do good for us. I pray he will do good for us.

Now my news!!
I GOT A NEW JOB!!! I GOT A NEW JOB!!! I GOT A NEW JOB!!! I was hired on at the IRS. Yes it is seasonal but it is a foot in the door and it is a federal job..GO ME GO MEAnd to make it even better...
K this is one of my MOST favorite pictures ever. In this picture it is, yes me and MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD. My Kay sister. The other half of my brain.

I get to work everyday with her. Yep that is right she got the same job I did. I don't know how it works over there I'm hoping that we will be on the same team.. or what ever it is over there. I am so excited plus to make it even better I get a $2 raise and since we are working the crap shift (4pm to 12:30am) we get paid 10% more an hour from 6pm to 12:30am. WAHOO so excited.

Now the down side.. I have to work the crap shift. UUUGGG I worry about not being here for the kids when they get home from school. But I will have the weekends off so that is good but UUGG crap shift. And the other down side it is seasonal work. There for I am going to stay at walmart for a least 2 days a week. So I can keep my job and on the off season at IRS I will have a job to fall back on. Those days are really going to stink. Very long days. But there is also an up note to that if I kick butt at my job they will ask me back. And since I am now employed there it will be easier for me to get other jobs there. As soon as my probation time is over I'm going to start applying for permanent positions. So maybe thing will start looking up.


Now on a personal note..
Last night I really had a hard time sleeping. I talked to Emalee about it today... When ever I read her blog it almost rips my heart out, every time I drive to work at one certain time on the road, it rips my heart out. And last night I realized why. Now I totally understand that it is nothing compared to what she is feeling and by no means do I want to try and take that feeling away from her or to try and say I know how she feels because I have no clue. But I miss Kenner. For the short time he was here that little part of my heart attached to him. And now that he is not here that little part of my heart is left missing him. I was there to see his birth to see his little heart beat and to see the angels take him away. I will always love him and he will always be in my heart.

In loving memory Kenner Jackson Rausch November 13, 2008.